Sunday, July 24, 2011

I Want to Stop Feeling Alone...

I keep having the momentary bouts of bad attitudes. Some are reactive, but I can admit that some are truly unwarranted. And I know what I want (need). But I hate to admit it because it makes me feel weak. The reality of it though, and I need to accept it, is that it is not WEAK to yearn for the companionship of another human being. That's what we are here for, that is the nature of this beast. We are social creatures that flourish best in social situations, etc. Yet, knowing this I still feel like I'm not supposed to want (need) someone. I never felt like that and again, I blame him. I was ok knowing that I needed him, then that led to a shattering and from that I've become "good".

Friday, July 8, 2011

Suicide

Trying my best to channel it
To help you understand
How death was better than not being with this man
You'd only think I'm crazy
If you've never seen this place
But I think you missed out
If this love, you've never taste

Shelf (4/2010)

(Opened an  old notebook of mine, with intention to write something new and happened upon this. Though not my best work, it's "nice" to see where I was to see how far I've come. I went straight to Facebook to post it, then realized THIS should be the place where these go...)

I made room on my shelf for you
I threw my caution to the wind
and trusted this relationship to fly
I hung my dreamcatcher
not knowing that dreams aren't endorsed by cries
I packed up my past
and removed it from teh shelf
Closing the lids to previous wounds
flesh from someone else
I made room on my shelf for you
I folded my dreams and tucked them neatly away
For your dreams were the priority, placed on display